Last night Sir and I had an amazing conversation.  It was the kind of conversation that I wouldn't have usually expected to have had.  It was totally open, honest and clear, about a topic that typically may have stayed hidden and tucked away.  It is becuase of this conversation that I feel my Sir is stronger than He believes and our relationship is gaining the strenght and confidence that it has lacked for some time.

I'll explain a little bit of it.  My Sir was concerned that my worry when he comes home would be brought to life, even if inadvertently.  We discussed what happened last time, what hadn't gone right, and what was good, and how we can do better this time around.  We also discussed how amazing the two weeks he came home was.  how it helped solidify us, and how much it meant to us both to just have that time.  For him, for me, for us. 

It is my belief that not only did our two weeks with him home help us meld, but I believe that the fact that we have opened up to have that conversation last night, and the conversation itself has brought us even closer.  When my Sir gets home, it is my belief that this time when my Sir comes home that it will go much MUCH better than the last time.  I will know better how to handle it, to give Sir space without being too far.  I will be able to be there for him, without being too close, or over bearing.

The last few nights I've been able to watch my Sir as he sleeps, something I am doing right now.  It is a blessing to be able to do this.  I can see him, be with him ( sort of) and know that he is alright.  Its not something that anyone can have, that is an easy option for anyone to have at the moment.  I am extremely lucky to have this.  Being able to watch him, to me means as much as being able to physically curl up beside him in the bed, hold him close and know that he's alright.  And besides, he's handsome, and he's my husband, my Sir, of course I enjoy watching him. To the same extent he gets to watch me.  Its not something I am used to- having someone tell me that I am cute when I sleep, however I am enjoying it.  He watches over me, check in on me when he gets a chance.  It lets him see me at home, safe, relaxed and getting the rest that I need.

I am eager for what will happen in approximately 60 days, when my Sir will be home, when I will be able to sit at his feet and read a book when he needs to zone out.  When I can lay with my laptop on the bed while he does what he needs to.  When I can take him out to a random place and just relax, even if he needs to zone out.  the key to it all, and I think the key that we weren't able to find last time.

** To Just Be with Each Other**

There is no magical secret to how things will go or how to make them perfect.  All I can do is my best, and all he can do is his best, together we can do anything.  We will do anything. 

♥ Always ♥

Sir's wench



He is Master and I am am slave.
He is Owner and I am owned.
He is commands and I am to obey.
He is to be pleased and I will be pleasing.
why is this?

Because He is my Sir and I am his goober.