Reflections of a cranky brat

It has been a few days since I've wirtten in my journal.  Its been due in part to me being otherwise distracted.  And not in the best of ways, but not in terribly bad ways either. 

I've been mudding alot the last coupld of days, which I've not been paying th emost attention to other things, like my journal.  Its most been an avoidance of today.  ITs out anniversary, yes its the 4 year wedding anniversary.  It is still a milestone, even though we both see it as small in comparison to december. Which is fine.  For me it was the, having to deal with te military potentially, and in effect doing a pretty damn good job, of keeping us form having any sense of quality time together.

I am not trying to sound petty or selfish, but its how I feel.  my Sir has a job to do and I understand that, but it in effect totally blows thatbecuase of demands on sleep, work, and various other things, Its reduced to a few moments.  I am totally selfish...


So in hopes of relieving my own selfish pressure and with any luck ridding myself of the cranky rut I've been in today, I got some work done on my Sir's anniversary gift.  Of course I cannot go into too much detail here... but I found im way too picky for what I want it to look like, how I want it to be, and all that.  I'm running into an issue where half of the items I thought I had I can no longer find, which is going to require me to go back into the dinosaur and pray that I can find them.  Its a bit on the ridiculous side.

Anyway...

I totally need to break myself of this, cause its going to drive me nuts.  I'm not talking the kind of nuts that I was before, the pre-meds freaking out... I'm talking the I'm too cranky for my own good and its going to piss of my Sir and get me into alot of trouble that will only make my mood worse. How do you break a bad mood  when the only real solution is two months away?  I need to be happy for waht I do have.  I can sit and watch him on the camera.  I know he is safe, and I know he is alright. 

Its just another drop in the bucket, and he'll be home soon.  And he'll be home for the bigger anniversary this year.  The anniversary of Five years in my Sir's collar.   *grins*

♥Always♥
your pierced wench



He is Master and I am slave.
He is Owner and I am owned.
He commands and I am to obey. 
He is to be pleased, and I am to be pleasing.
Why is this?

Because He is Sir, and I am His.