Unbelievable...

I'm writing this certainly early for the day, but at this point I have to write becuase for some unknown reason it is not only all that I can think about, but on the forefront of my mind that I cannot sleep, even when I was trying to. 

I am sitting here in shock, not a bad kind of shock, maybe actually a good kind of shock.  I'm not entirely sure why but I am here to make a stab at it and here goes.  Tonight my Sir and I had a pretty deep conversation that had it occured a year ago would have easilysent us both packing in opposite directiosn fuming.  However tonight it was open, direct and honest communication from both sides. 

It to me is not about the topic of the conversation persay (though I will write about that later on).  It is more important to me that we HAD that conversation.  That things ideas were exchanged, met with a pair of open minds, thinking with concern and focus for US and our relationship.  It shows perfectly the growth that we have undergone, the new found strength of our relationship and the ability to speak more openly about certian topics instead of bottling them up or hiding them is HUGE for us. 

I am blown away by that more than anything. 

The exact topic of the conversation while it had a fair chance of being brutal and damaging was not.  Cocneres were voiced, boundaries were set, rules and restrictions put in place, and talk of desires, hopes and wants also came out.  It was again a conversation that as much as it made my heart skip a few beats and minorly panic, made me feel that much more safe, and secure in Him. 

*lets out a deep breath not that it was pent up, but just becuase*

I really am in a blissful state of shock.  Thats the only way to really explain it, and there are very few words past that.  


The topic of conversation was me being able to play with someone, who was not my Husband. IT had always been something said that I hadn't ever thought would ever come to fruition was that I was allowed to have fun with whomever I trusted provided it doesn't have a penis or is male.  The opportunity has made itself blatantly apparent and my first stop was- Sir... your thoughts? Did you really mean it? Would you be upset if I did something?

And again it was an open conversation that started there and took off to several things that both of us knew would have a bit to do with the subject.  Considering our past it was going to be a "hot topic"but along with other things we have worked on, we were able to discuss it, rationally and come to settled point on the matter and move on.  Do I know for sure if I will play with her? I don't, but if I should i know where the lines are.  I am not going to leave my husband for anyone else, so there is nothing that he nor I needs to be overly concerned with.  In addition, in the future I am going to be as open minded as I can  about the possibility of my Sir and I having someone to play with.  As an us thing, a unit a team,  not just one side or the other, but both of us.  That sense of security- that my Sir understand where my insecurities and issues lie, that he can see them from that far away and be ready and there to help me with them, and work through them has me absolutely glowing right now. 

Time to try and sleep again....

♥Always♥
Your wench


Oh and before I forget.  The rules and conditions that have been set into place are as follows--

0.  If at all possible my new piercing is to be left alone and un touched.  My Sir is to be the first to toy and play with it.
1.  I want pictures of you all tied up in a nice neat little bundle....
2.  No assistance to be given by a man at all while your being played with....
3.  When He get's home....at some point, He gets to watch me being played with.