Frustration...

I wasn't keen on writing this down in here becuase I know what its going to do to me.  Not that I can stop it anyway...

I've been excited and eager all day at the possibility of having time with you tonight, private time for us.  Due to situations out of both your and my control it didn't happen.  And my three most despised letters of this deployment bite me in the ass again.  Meaning, no playtime, becuase on a seconds notice you'd have to jet.  

Its so hard, I need you.  my body needs you inside and outside im screaming jsut for one touch, one kiss, the brush of a hand anything.  I want you to be able to enjoy it as well, as if there was an 8/5 hour time difference between us, as if it was jsut you and me and nothing seperating us. 

*deep breath*

I want to arouse you, I want to please you, and now im stuck squirming on the bedsheets not wanting to touch myself, becuase tonight was supposed to be for you, and I don't feel like I can without you here to watch me, to see me, to see how much I need you, crave you...

It makes me ache, how badly I want you...

I've been trying to be a good girl, keep myself calm, not throw myself at you and beg for no mercy becuase I know its not possible right now.  It makes me want to rip my hair out and thrash on the bed.  And then the messenger kicks out and im left biting and tearing at my pillow.

I need you...
I hunger for you...


and now I squirm on our bed- aching and dripping...

~ your pierced slut