Wacky Wednesday

I went to bed REALLY early yesterday.  Like 1030, kind of early.  I was excited I was going to sleep, and then when I woke up it would be nice and early and I would have the whole day ahead of me. 

I wasn't expecting to wake up at 2am, then fall back to asleep and be wide awake at 4am.  At 6 I fell back to sleep and took another nap until 10.  It could have been worse I guess.  Ugh, I wanted to be up early but not 2am!

Whats wrose is when I called yesterday about the truck, he said he was going to be gone for most of the day at an auction in Hartford, and that he would be there after 4 so I could see the truck. I show up at 4:15.  And there is some kid sitting in the truck, telling me that he has been sitting there all day waiting for the guy cause he wants to buy the truck.   The worst part- the guy from the shop isn't going to be there until 5, and this other guy has all $2600.  Fuck.


I went to goodwill on my way home, and found a really cute dress that I can wear to our friends wedding, for $10.  And it looks awesome.  now I jsut need shoes.  See!!!! look Sir I shopped money conscious! It's so cute.  And I used some of my casino winnings to buy a HOT pair of shoes.  They are heels... so I can only wear them when I'm kneelign with my Sir.... or getting tied up so that it won't make the height thing awkward.  And they were on sale too!!

Now for the big thought of the day.


I am considering puching my own limits. My confidence limit. Can I be self assured enough to go topless at the space for being tied up, and wrapped in rope, and maybe I'll get suspended. Its one thing for me to do it in front of people I know and trust- Like Bitey, Freaky, Dementia- people I trust that aren't going to judge me. I am not sure tonight if I could handle doing something like that where everyone could see me. The only thing that would stop me ( aside from my Sir telling me not to) is me being worried that I am going to be judged becuase I'm a bit larger- I'm not a thinner girl, and I don't want that held over my head, well I know I would hold it over my head that I am not the typical woman that every guy is going to gawk over. *sighs*
I think that its an important step for me. Like when my Sir paraded me through the casino. ITs a step for me to be able to say this is me, if you don't like it walk away. This is me- all of me- and I'm beautiful. And if for no other reason I think I should. and then I have second thoughts...
*deep breath*
I've got a few days to decide.

♥Always♥
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